A Simple Place Blog: What I want in my life

What are the habits I want to have?
How do I set myself up for success?
What goals do I have and how can I achieve them?

Then I use a journal to track my progress. I make to-do lists and try to break down big tasks and schedule them. I always get sidetracked but later I try to get myself disciplined again. Sometimes I drop one goal altogether as sometimes my goals change. Having the right goal is important as you don't want the ladder on the wrong wall. I always want to do things better. But sometimes I get tunnel vision and don't relate my goals to my actual life.

I only have now. And 24 hours in a day to change my life. Anthony Robbins said we don't get what we want. We get what we have to have. I notice this when I try to control my diet. When I first started the Paleo diet I was very adamant about it. Now I have fallen behind and I am starting to eat lots of crap. Maybe I will come off it and start Clean Eating instead. When I first started I had to have it. Now.. well... not so much.

Now the trend is to be chubby, or thick. I guess it has made me feel better about my weight. With clothing hacks I can look quite average sized. I'm not fat, I'm just above average weight. I know that. I am not obese or anything or have to be on a diet. So losing weight is not something I have to have. I guess I won't lose weight.

Trying to find a writing gig or doing things to get a better job always seems so daunting, and I get comfortable all the time so I don't want to improve things as I don't have to have anything. I like my comfy life. I could just watch TV at night and there would be no real consequences. I just won't achieve my career goals.

I guess it all depends on what I deem to be success for myself. How will I know if I have "succeeded"? What I think is "success" for me at the moment is-

Be fit & in shape
Have good relationships with family & friends
Have a job I love
Contribution to society
Growth & progress

With these things in mind, maybe I can strive more to make my life more worthwhile than it is now. I set my own definitions of success. It also is context dependent. I am a successful organizer if you look at my desk or my room. We can be successful in anything we want.

I can contribute to society by volunteering and donations. I have donated money to World Vision before.

I'm lucky to be quite a growth oriented person. I naturally want to improve myself, or just get myself out of a rut. So I think I will always try to have growth in some shape or form.

As for family and friends, I hope I treat people well and stop caring so much what people think about me. My fear of what people think of me sometimes paralyzes me. I often internalize the criticisms of other people who don't know me at all and have no part in my life whatsoever.

A job I love would be great. Maybe I will try to apply for a job from a website my friend sent to me for start-up jobs. I may also do some courses online, those MOOCs, to prepare for jobs. I have many opportunities and resources if I choose to see them. I just have to face my fears. Another friend said to not focus so much and just chill. Will try to make this work this year.